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2012-01-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

;xoxo<3

Cny 2012

2012-01-25T22:54:00.000+08:00

Went to Malaysia during CNY's first few days, as usual. Went back for a good four days for this year. It was fun there, but I miss Singapore still. It's still awesome to go back and catch up with my cousins, sing song, talk cock and eat together non stop. Haha. I'm fat. Came back and went over to bf's granny's place to bai nian. Came home after that and stared at the computer screen with the boy. Hm.

Skipped school today as my drawing is screwed. Went to bf's new place, slept for a few hours before going off to work with him. For the first time in my life, I handed raw food and sort of prepare the cutlet with the boy. I think we rock the kitchen together. We had the same smell on our hands after the whole thing. He said, " you can't say that my hand is smelly now because you're smelling the same. " Haiz. :( He sent me home after that, I showered while he uses my laptop and I napped. Heee. Woke up, changed, went to big uncle house to bai nian + dinner.

That prolly sums up my cny this year. Didn't really gamble this year. Fingers kinda itchy. Collected more local red packets this year and I've more to come. Good thing.

Family finally eating our own reunion dinner this Sunday and inviting relatives over to my place for a gathering next Saturday. $.$ And then there will be lion dance, as usual again.

Have fun for the rest of the cny, collect more money. Be happy, eat more oranges and bakwa and we'll all grow fat together. (:

2012-01-23T22:46:00.001+08:00

I miss my dear boy.

from malaysia

2012-01-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

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2012-01-19T13:39:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I really wish I had hair growing shampoo.

happy 9 month darling

2012-01-18T22:35:00.000+08:00

traditional breakfast > kboxlunch > fondue for 2 > mission impossible: ghost protocol > home sweet home + poloariods + photos. you know I love you, like a love song baby.

2012-01-15T23:06:00.001+08:00

Went to town with bf for some shopping, had dinner with the family after that. Love how he can click with my siblings. When times we go out with my family, I don't even need to walk beside him all the time because he can just walk with one of my siblings and talk to them like friends.(:

Awesome date, school tomorrow, I wish I have a stack of MC and I can use them whenever I want to. Last few weeks, always these few weeks where I feel like skipping school or partial. Argh.

2012-01-12T13:46:00.000+08:00

This is how we roll in class. Introducing my darkest friend (literally). As dark as he might seems, he's super nice and he's always the one taking my nonsense and entertaining me all day in class. Hehe. Currently the facilitator is talking and I've no idea what he is yaking about. There's UT later, did not study a shit, whats new? Never even download the 6Ps yet. Oh well, hope I scrape through it.

Dear BenjaminLoh, I hope we get better because I know we still got it. As the saying goes, as long as we got love.
X.

2012-01-09T19:30:00.001+08:00

Dear Adabelle,

Happy belated 19th birthday. Although I might not be able to give you the best birthday like what a gf should do, I really hope you enjoyed your day. This is a little too late, but I just want you to know that I'm really happy that you've entered my life. This friendship is definitely a keeper. (: Thank you for the times where you came out of the class with me just to hear me sob about my problems, thank you for always protecting me, thank you for the SMS-es where we sent that just made my days and nights. I've so many thank you for you, it will just never be enough. We might not know each other for a very long period of time, but I guess it's safe to say that you really impacted me a lot. You're really a beautiful and strong lady. As similar as we are, we still have different thinkings, but I'm shocked at how we still managed to click so well. (: Contradicting on the other hand, I'm also shocked at how sometimes we can just give each other a look and know just communicate. In your 19th year, I hope you'll be happier and see the good in you. And I believe, you'll meet someone sooner or later that will also see the good in you.(: I love you dear girl. Mua<3

with all the love we've created. <3

formspring.me

2012-01-04T22:19:00.001+08:00

Anything you want to know. http://www.formspring.me/shiminxo

Happenings of twenty11.

2012-01-01T01:14:00.105+08:00

- Working back at birdpark.
- Got back O Level Results.- Posted to Republic Poly, New Media.

- Went Genting during CNY with the family.

- Finally bought a polaroid camera.

- Dad went away.

- Church held her last service at Suntec.

- Got a MacBook Pro.

- Met a very nice boy.

-School started, met the first awesome bunch of friends.

- Went to Kuantan with family and got a damn bad tan.

never burnt so bad before, :'( ouch!

- Took our first polaroids together!- Went to Marina Barrage for first picnic.- Boyf brought me to Universal Studios Singapore.- Went to Underwaterworld.- Boyfr's National Service Enlistment.- Dad got hospitalized. - First 3D movie, Cars 2. - Met up with CityCollege friends.

- Sem 2, met new wonderful people!

- Zoo trip with boyfr.

- 18th birthday. ( GV Gold Class, Steamboat, MBS stay )

- Virgin Club Trip. - Boyfr's Passing Out Parade.

- Back to City College.- Zouk Out.

And 311211 together...

Basically, as you can see, 2011 seems to be much more happening than 2010. However, stayed a good girl through out the year, did not hook up with any boys or girls or had any flings. (; Just perhaps got too drunk and kicked my boyfr, a couple of hangovers, a couple of wrong doings and perhaps a couple of heartaches caused to people around.
To heck with all the new year resolutions because I know I will probably forget them the moment I open my eyes tomorrow. I just want to be a better girl...., daughter, friend, sister, girlfriend to all my loved ones and thats all. And of cuz, I want to be closer to God.
Basically, I just want 2012 to be better. ( duh, ikr. ) It's a new start on a clean shit of paper. It will be the last year that I'll be in the "teen" years, gotta wise up a little and mature a little uh.
I wish that your 2012 will rock your colorful panties too ok?:) then we will all die in our naked bodies because we rocked our panties away. Hehehe, I love all of you who are still reading this space of mine, XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOZXC.

with all our love from a lousy phone. mua<3

2011-12-22T17:13:00.001+08:00

Wrapped the presents today, can't feel anymore excited! :D

2011-12-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

Back in December 2011, where we only had each other....

And now, where we had our own guys by us....

Candlelight Service 2011, as beautiful as ever. (: Blessed to be able to bring someone along with me to witness the amazing sight. (:

18 December 2011, Parents' Anniversary.....

So, maybe December started off on a very rough patch for me and the boy. But, I guess as it comes to an end, we are getting better and closer and stronger. (: For the family, I guess as time passes, I've grown closer to my siblings, especially my sister whom I opened up more to. (:

I really want to end the year off well.... with all the above people. (:

2011-12-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

"It's confession time, 2011 is almost over. Inbox me something you have always wanted to ask me, I promise it will stay between us. Post this as your status and maybe people will surprise you'

shiminxo@hotmail.com

#Zoukout

2011-12-12T14:34:00.001+08:00

So we danced our weekends away. It was definitely fun and a great experience and it was both our first time:) Hehehe. Stayed at the Hotel Michael for the night:)

I'm still stuck with deadlines and I'm already in the holiday mood. Thank God we only have 2 deadlines this week and we will be off for a two week break!

2011-12-02T14:43:00.001+08:00

Last month of 2011, December! This year have been good so far! Despite the fair share of downs, I know I've become stronger and really know who are the ones that really matters.(:

Last month of 2011, good food, best boyfriend, awesome friends, nice outings, great family love, lets end it all on a good note. Lets go.(;

Enjoy your last month!

2011-11-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

Not going to entertain anymore formspring questions because it's kinda redundant and it was really a surprise too.

The reason why I started reading her blog was 2 years ago, when my ex gf told that she talked shit about me. Apparently, she was with this guy that I knew before I entered sec school. I don't know what the shit happened between them but she was spreading shit about me and my sister to... her friend, which is my girlfriend at that point of time. And thats how I went to her blog. Thats all. I don't even know her and she was already talking about me. Unimportant? Right. Not gonna say her or judge her since I don't know her and it's not right either. I'm over that.

For those on formspring, enough shit of copying, if you really think I copied her or something, you don't do it the 18 year old way, do it the MATURE way. Report or something, do not stay infront of your screen on a saturday and try so very hard to bring me down. If you really are that brave, state down your name. You said that you are too ashamed of me cause we are in the same class/batch? I think you must be more ashamed of how your parents named you. I'm okay if you guys want to write in about me copying her cause thats what you think. But, going on to talk about me seeking attention? You come to my blog, you read my entries, then you happily gave me your attention on formspring. Since when did I ask for attention? Right, since the day you are too ashamed of how your parents name you. I seriously do not understand what has copying got to do with attention seeking etc etc. I don't really remember having people that are not close to me back in secondary school in my own class, it's pretty much seems that you're quite fake with me back in secondary school or you're just too small a fuck for me to care about. For people who said my boyfriend once said that she is pretty, who do you hear it from? Benjamin's own mouth? No right? Then don't spread shit about it. In other case, so what if he did once say she is pretty? I don't see anything that has got to do with this matter. Try harder if you are trying to break us up. He do not care about all that's happening, just stop trying to drag him into this. -.- If you're really not happy by whatever he has said or have any comments on his taste, go to him and say it in his face.

This is perhaps the first time writing this type of entry ever since secondary school ended. I screwed up my secondary school life, I admit, but it was fun doing it. I know I made a lot of enemies back in those days. But I'm over that. If your hobby is really bringing people down why not try other ways that will also reveal your identity? If you still can't find other ways, I suggest you to give the fuck up, because it just mean that you don't really matter. (:

Conscience's clear and that's all. This matter is out of my life.

2011-11-25T15:01:00.000+08:00

1 year difference

Went back to citycollge for the party one Monday! Awesome time catching up with the teachers and friends. :D Hehehehehe. People everywhere there are filled with love and encouragement. Sad that the place will be pass on to another company while citycollege move to other place. Nevertheless, what a heart warming place and people met there are really a blessing to be with. (:

Abrupt ending! Meet my favourite girl in class! Mua!<3 hehehe, its friday, enjoy your weekends.

Virgin Club

2011-11-21T15:41:00.001+08:00

First clubbing trip last Saturday! Initially it was only Adabelle bringing me along, but Yanling happened to be there and Shiting and Yingli went down to look for me cause they said it was my first time. So sweet of them although they left half way to Butter Factory.

Went to Zirca/Rebel! Something damn embarassing happened and I think this made my first clubbing trip more memorable. Haaaaa, guess what?

My heels broke!!!!!!! :@ :( :@ :( :@ :( :@ :( :@ :(

Then my boyfr ran to withedrew money and we bought a pair of rollies from the vending machine!

It's like I paid 20$ for a pair of shoes which is so thin that I can feel the floor!:( Sigh, thank God when Yingli came, she had an extra pair of pumps. :)

First time having beer, tequila, vodkacoke,vodkacranberry and jaggerbomb for the first time without getting drunk. I'm a super noob drinker and I wasn't high or drunk that night! Hehehe, danced till 0345AM then cabbed to boyfr's house while he drove me home. ^^

Really fun night and it was really a damn good experience!:) Adabelle was being such a dear to always ensure that I'm having a good time!:) what a sweetie, hehehe.

Ok, for now, ZOUK OUT HERE I COME!!!:D

18th birthday video blog

2011-11-06T23:59:00.001+08:00

Hello! I know I've been gone for quite some time! And I've promised the remaining people here that I'll update my blog here, the truth is, I've lost interest in blogging! Which kinda sucks, because I really want to be able to look back into something and bring back the past days, aiyah, trying very hard to explain but I hope you catch the drift!

I don't know how many of you are still here reading this post! But, I'm gonna do a blog post about my 18th birthday! I've got too much photos and things to say, so I've decided to do up a video to "blog" about my birthday! Hope you guys like it!:D

PSST/ I'm really happy and touched for the faithful readers who still drops by!!! I'm sorry to keep you guys waiting! Will try to blog more;)

2011-10-04T19:57:00.003+08:00

school's tmrw and I'm down with flu and cold! wtf. :( I hope I survive school tmrw, let my classmates be nice people. I'll blog soon.

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2011-09-27T22:18:00.001+08:00

Pictures from over the weekends! The past weekend were such a blast filled with so much love. The boy brought me out on a date on Saturday, he finally made me Pictures from over the weekends! The past weekend were such a blast filled with so much love. The boy brought me out on a date on Saturday, he finally made me put on a pair of jeans with him, haha. Wore heels too! I'm kinda amazed by how much I can walk on those sticks without giving up. Hehehe, quite strong eh. So we went to vivocity to catch a movie, "I Don't Know How She Does It". Went to Toys R Us to walk around and behave like kids and took funny photos. Hehe. Boyfriend bought me a Cars Wood figurine. So loved. We took a slow walk to Sentosa to snap some photos before cabbing home!:D Muhaha, went to his house, took his car and he sent me home!

My dad fixed my bed over the weekends for me too! Hehe, it's so amazingly strong now, with love somemore! Daddy could have rested over the weekends, his only rest week, but he gave it up just to helped me, he sweat and bled too. Ouch. :( I'm really grateful for the people God placed in my life and I really think I've so much to learn about love. Indeed, its always better to give than to receive and it will always blessed to be a blessing. Nevertheless, with my own flesh and own strength, it never will be enough for me to keep loving the people around me. My parents, my church leaders, my church friends, my school friends and my boyfriend. People who never judge me or gave up on me no matter how many times I've failed them. Ahhh.

I met some awesome mates yesterday, but I'll blog about it soon enough, don't wanna cramp everything into one page and I've no idea why this fucked up MIO is such a bitch!

we went somewhere fun, stay tuned!<3

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2011-09-22T21:18:00.001+08:00

It's gonna be friday again!:D Book out babyloh day! Hiakhiak, or it should be phrased as the other way round. Uh huh, went to pasar malam last night with Jiabao, bought all those yummeh fattening food and sat at a void deck and talked a lot. From classmates to school to races to boobs and sex. Hehehehehe, kinky....nah. Lol.

Kinda miss hanging out with people but why oh why am I so lazy to plan. Monday, I'm meeting my City College friends! Hehehe. Can't wait, it seems like ages that I've met them!! So much to say and so much to catch up, hehehehe.

Okay, I think I need to stop being so lazy and pick up my phone to text people and plan some outings.

Can't wait for the weekends!<3

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2011-09-20T15:55:00.001+08:00

17th the Saturday!:D My boyfriend came over at about noon and we both washed up and prepared to go out. We wanted to leave house earlier but apparantly, we were both so lazy and kept dragging time. Boyfriend drove to church, fetched Gina to church too. After service, went off straight home as pauline has bbq dinner at home. Ate and went out again to get ice cream, after that went to fetch Boyfr's dad. Went home and we played monopoly deal together with brother, haha. The boys always win me in minutes so I set a new rule when they play with me, they need at least 5 properties to win me. And tadah, I finally won! What a loser right. >.> Boyfr tucked me to bed and went off at around 0200am ++? :)

We basically cuddled the whole of Sunday away watching Big Bang Theory before he books in for the week!

The whole thing I gave boyfr for this month!

Hiakk

Hiakhiakhiak, I really hope he likes what I gave him, it's my first time shopping alone for a boy so right, I don't really have much advices.

Hey boyfriend, perhaps the many Iloveyou(s) and Imissyou(s) that we've been constantly exchanged are now mundane and it is just another figure of speech that we use. However, thats the best I can do to express to you how I really feel because there are basically no words in the entire universe I can find to tell you how I feel about you. There are no other phrase as beautiful as Iloveyou or as simple as Imissyou to fit into this beautiful simple yet perfect love we share. Love you sweetie.

Last night on the phone,

Me: I can't sleep.
Bf: Okay, I sing song for you ok?
Me: Okay.
Bf: *Sings twinkle twinkle little star.*
Me: I don't want, I want soft kitty!
Bf: Okok, soft kitty, warm kitty, little ball of fur, happy kitty, sleepy kitty, pur pur pur.

Hahaha, then I cannot stop calling him kitty! Lol. Hai hai hai, why he so cute nehz. ( Must be under my influence, hiakhiak. )

Alrighty, I'm gonna take a hot shower now in this cooling weather.

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2011-09-15T00:18:00.001+08:00

During last weekend bookout, went to CCK to fetch the botak, while in the lift back up to his place, he pulled out a bunch of flowers from his very hug ass ugly green leafy bag! It's kinda withering now. :( Hai. But, so sweet of him!:D Hehehe. Went to Ikea for during the weekends to purchase an vase and a few fake flowers! We also went town shopping during the weekends which almost resulted in his death, haha. We walked around for 4 hours and he was complaining already. Best part? He was in his seasoned vans shoes while I was in my heels that I wore for only the 6th time? Haha, he's very proud of me, hehehe. And we took our second set of neoprint!:D We also ate teppanyaki for one of the days for lunch! Like finally! Hehehehehehehe.

We were texting just now and he told me he's going to donate blood tomorrow because I can't do it and he was reminded of how I said I wanted to give back to society and he wants to it too, for me. I'm so proud of my boy, I really hope we'll grow towards each other, what each other wants and have a common goal in the different aspects of life. :)

This weekend will be the 17!:) Hehehe, sneak preview of what I've prepared for the boy!

Hopefully, it turns out nice! Okay, the boy just fell asleep on me while texting!:( Hai. Army sucks. Okay, I shall try to sleep too! :)

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2011-09-07T17:46:00.000+08:00

While we're snuggling on the bed, my botak told me this,

Eh baby, I want to make you my wife one day. I really love you a lot. And, I want to sleep beside you and be able to see your smile the first thing in the morning. I love you.

I really never heard anything from a guy before in my entire life, and I guess this is my first time. While we were both sleeping, I woke up at 5am, stared hard at his beautiful face and started sobbing. Hmm, as much as I want to be in head over heels in love with him, I'm afraid too. :/ And I guess, I'm really lucky to have someone who dares to give me his all despite the shit he's been through. I mean, I have my fair share of heartache before him too, but I guess he's just braver. We might only be a few months old, but it seems like I've known him since forever. :) And, still glad that I'm with him, I just hope we'll work it out.

So proud of myself, from someone who does not like to take photos, my boy now shows more funny faces than me infront of the camera!^^ Hehe, what an awesome boyf.

I'm looking at you and my heart loves the view cause you mean everything. It's gonna be everything in our whole world. (:

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2011-09-01T23:01:00.001+08:00

Woah, so many days no blogging. So like boyfriend had a long weekend, he book out on friday and booked in on wednesday! Basically we caught Cars in 3D, hung out with my family and his family. :) It was a simple book out, but I got him late while he booking in cause I can't decide what to wear. :/ But thankfully, nothing happened to him!:/ Still, feeling guilty max.

This guy while being late, still asked me if I was hungry and thirsty, bought bbt and bread for me. And he always show me that he love me more. I say I want to send him to Pasir Ris but he said I can only send him over there if I accept his money to cab back. On the way home, he called me and accompanied me on the phone all the way.

Silly boy bought me a bottle of salt water and a little note to fix my little broken heart. Hm, I really hope he won't do stupid things anymore to put us into this kind of risk. This guy, I don't know why either, but he managed to capture my heart. Never want to leave him but sometime, I feel like I'm left with no choice but to leave him. Sigh. :/ Ah, don't wanna talk about it anymore. :(

Talking to my botak now, I miss him so so so so so so so so much.

Book out day tmrw!<3

18/19/20/21/22

2011-08-23T14:53:00.001+08:00

This is my boy during his first book out/book in! Had so much fun when we were together!:D hehehe.

20thAug- First book out!!

He went to discovery center then he cabbed down to find me! Hehehehe. He bought a pair of running shoes for me, but it's too small. :/ then he called me last night and he told me he bought another pair. -.- This guy forever pampering me. Hehe. He went to shower and I kept disturbing him that how does it feel like to not shower in 3rd world water. Hehehe. After he showered, I washed up too and we went out!:) He drove mummy's car out. Went to Marina Square to have late lunch! Well, my first meal. Dined at Manhattan Fish Market. After that, walked around, make fun of him, listen to him and his army stories, bought gongcha, waited for Pauline and went for service together. :) After service, he drove back to Jurong to have dinner with his family. After that, went to hospital to pick mummy up and visit daddy too! Hehe. Drove to pick Pauline up after we left the hospital and went to Pioneer to have supper. :/ Super sinful! Keep eating non stop. Drop my family home and drove to Jurong Point to catch Zookeeper with boyf. Super funny movie!! Motivates people to go to the zoo only lor! Hehehe. Home around 01++AM, washed up, surf facebook with boyf and went to bed! He wrestled with me in his sleep. -.- Snored as loud as an elephant and talk to me. ALL THESE WITHOUT HIM KNOWING. He must be damn tired. Lol.

21thAug

Boyf woke up to send mummy to the hospital early in the morning. Came home, cuddled beside me while I was still sleeping, hehehehe. Cuddled till noon and came down for my MacDonald breakfast that he bought! He's so silly, he called delivery cause he forgot to bring cash out! Forever loved when he's around. Heihei. After eating, Pauline drove him home and we went to hospital to pick m mum up. Boyf had time with his family while I went to do some grocery shopping with my mum and sister. Met the boy up at around 5 to send him to Pasir Ris for his book in. :( Reached Pasir Ris early and so we went and ate at McCafe. He sent me to take a cab to the hospital before he went off to find his bunk mates! :)

It's Tuesday today and I can't for him to book out already! Friday! He will have a mega long weekend this week because of the hari raya and polling day! Hehehe. Just by blogging makes me miss him so much. Ah, :(

Alright, it's UT week finally, and I'm still not studying. Wtf, I ought to get killed. >.>

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2011-08-18T14:37:00.001+08:00

I MISS YOU.

I miss you to the extend that I miss you means a little too little to describe how much I miss you. I miss you to the extend that just by saying these three words to you, tears fall. Every vein and bone screaming for you, telling you how much I need you here now.

Yesterday was hell, I would never want to go through it ever again. Don't leave me hanging like that, it's not cool at all.

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2011-08-17T13:50:00.001+08:00

Dad got admitted to the hospital yesterday. It kind of break my heart to see him go through so much this year. :( Sigh, I hope this year can be over and done with soon. Gonna go to the hospital to visit him later. Can't wait. :D

Last night on the phone with @Bendjermeanloh:

B: Eh, it' 12 and you are left with 7 hours of sleep, you should sleep.

F: Oh ok, it's 12 and I am left with 7 hours of sleep, I should sleep.

B: Yeah, faster go sleep already ok?

F: Okay.

B: Goodnight baby.

F: Night.

B: I love you.

F: ok.

B: Why sound so sian?

F: Cause its 12 and I'm left with 7 hours of sleep.

B: Oh okay... then faster sleep ok.

F: Yeah.

B: Love you.

F: Ok.

B: You ok?

F: Yeah, I'm left with 7 hours of sleep.

B: Why you keep emphasizing on the 7 hours of sleep?

F: Dk, cause it's 12 and I'm left with 7 hours of sleep.

B: You make me feel like I've forget something.

F: No la.

B: Okay.... eh wait, whats today's date?

F: Don't know.

B: Okay eh, today's 16 eh? no today 17!!! Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

F: HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE.

B: Happy monthsary baby.

F: Hehehe, happy 4 months baby, I love you.

Although you suck by forgetting it's 17. Although you always make me mad. Although you make me want to throw you in the middle of a busy road and jump in later to save you. I still love you as much! Thank you for the amazing things and places you've brought me in these 4 months. Through the fights and quarrels to the wars, I believe we've known each other better. Suck that you are in camp now, but its okay, 3 more days and you're coming home. Really can't wait. <3 And hopefully you will be surprised by my surprises. Hehehehe.

from me to you, from the heart.

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2011-08-15T18:28:00.001+08:00

Hey love, it seems that you're so far away from me. It feels like we've not met for the past decade, somehow it made me feel like you're more than thousand miles away from me and can't seem to buzz back. The weird thing is, I still feel your heartbeat beating beside me when I sleep in, I still picture you coming through that door like how you will always walk in and greet me and I never fail to smile at the silly faces of yours that always remain so cheeky in those photographs.

It's gonna be another four days before you come home. I don't know how long you'll be around before you need to answer your duty calls again. I don't know how much time we'll be able to spend together as one. I don't know how many memories we will be able to forge in the limited time. I'm thankful for the upcoming days where you'll be coming home. It will stop my thoughts from chasing each other in my head, it will stop my heart messing around with the brain.

Ah, just to say honey, I can't wait for you to be back, and honestly, I can't wait to irritate the shit out of you. :) Hehe.

cheekyboy91<3

11/12/13

2011-08-14T12:35:00.001+08:00

13 August- Church's 22nd Anniversary. Second year celebrating church's birthday. How time flies eh. I guess entering church will never be a thing I that I'll look back and say uh, "I shouldn't have done it." It will always be a thing that I'll look back and say, "I'm glad I've enter church." Played games with cellgroup and squeezed 25 people into a car!!!:D CHC, to choose love, to find a hurt to heal it and to find a need to meet it.

Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. love never fails.

And I pray one day, I'll be able to serve in a greater way and to impact in a greater way.

Its Sunday today! Stay home Sunday! :D Another 5 more days till my botak returns! He kept telling me that he's tanner now and he's producing a 6 pack. I can't wait to see him! Miss him so much much much.
Hehe.

Alrighty, enjoy your Sunday!
xx.

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2011-08-11T20:14:00.000+08:00

This week is week 15.

This week is the last full week of school.

This week is National Day.

This week only has 4 schooling days.

This week I've partial-ed twice.

This week, I'm only left with Friday.

This week is going to be over soon.

My baby is coming home. <3

Met up with xiuwen today, it was definitely a fun time just sitting at Mac chilling and laughing. :) I kinda miss doing all these with her. Haha. Kinda nice to share what has been in my life with someone that not only cares but understand. Needless to say, awesome feeling to share with someone who have the same faith as you. :) hehehe, I'm blessed with nice people.

Love is a special thing, we should celebrate and appreciate.

Gonna miss this class, e24d.

09.

2011-08-10T20:00:00.001+08:00

I'm holding on, I'm barely holding on to you. You got inside my head, I tried my best to be guarded. I'm hanging on another day just to see what you'll throw my way. I'm falling apart, barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating.

Even the best guy fail, even the best relationship you might think you are in will have flaws. And all good things will come to an end.

I'm so fucking amazed. Despite the bullshit I'm going through, I still can use the amount of strength left to fucking miss you so fucking bad. You fucking win, you fucking win.

07/08

2011-08-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

It's national day today! The day where you thought you'll be booking out and attending the NDP with me. Haha, too bad that you've to be in Tekong watching it from the screen. The talk we had last night really make me feel so much better that we trash things out and of course, it definitely renewed my mindset with you and this whole waiting for you to be over with NS thing. :)

11 more days baby, 11 more days. Really can't wait to see you honey, you've no idea how much I miss you sweetheart. I simply miss your presence to the extend that I miss you can't really explain how I feel now.

05/06

2011-08-07T14:46:00.000+08:00

It's Sunday!! Saturday was actually not as bad as I would think without the boy! Went to church and went to find @IAMYL and @Twentyfifth08 as they accompany me for dinner, such sweethearts!:D Hehehe, talked a bit and the boy called about 0930!:D hehehe.

Slept really well last night but got woken up by the scary thunderstorm that I thought it might take away our lives. Dreamt of the boy and it wasn't a very good thing, cried like mad in my dreams:(

Woo, I'm quite psyched for school tmrw! Formal wear, can't wait to see all my classmates dolled up in office wear looking all smart! :D

So proud of my boyfr that he is so willing to be different from all the typical guys you see outside, I guess he's really a keeper despite all the shit we've went through. Hm. Can't say much, but I really hope we'll last through everything.

Sunday's gonna be over soon and it's monday, my boy will be coming out soon! Hehehe.

04.

2011-08-05T20:34:00.002+08:00

I'm so sorry for being such a bitch at times, I'm so sorry for feeling so insecure, I'm so sorry for feeling that I'm always alone, I'm sorry for saying things that I do not mean, I'm so sorry for breaking your heart over and over again.

Guys likes to appear tough, they like to let people think that their scary, they flex their muscles and gives you a deadly stare. They don't cry cause they think that make them look like a pussy. But if you need to know, girls do need to know what you're feeling in order to feel more secure, to know that they are not feeling all these drama alone and they wants to know you're on the same page with them.

My guy finally broke down last night to me while he talked to me. It's my first time hearing him being so weak, it was as if he was at his lowest. But to me, I see him shining like gold, being stronger, it was like he was at his strongest cause he's crippling inside. Then it opened my heart and I finally realized all these while, I'm not alone.

I guess sometime we all need a little bit of emotion, regarding your gender. Perhaps, I'm happy that my guy finally have the courage to show me how he feels.

I'm much happier now and I'm getting on better, (: It's friday and I don't know what to do without him during the weekends, it's gonna be so weird. :/ But, it's gonna be over soon.(:

Oh yah, today I checked my blog stats, apparently, someone search "ahlianblog" on the search engine and got to my page, now say whaaaaaaat.

Enjoy your weekends darlings.
Xoxo.

with all our love<3

03.

2011-08-04T13:14:00.002+08:00

No one bother to ask. And when they ask, they don't get it, they see you as a weakling. And then I shut down and turn off. No, you don't understand, none of you do. You mock, you laugh, you gigle, but you've no idea how much I want to stuff shit into your face, let it smack right into your face or prolly stuck a grenade up your ass.

Out of 10 people that I've tried to confide in, it prolly ends up this way,
"Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, you're cool, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you and fuck you."

And I emphasize, NO YOU DON'T GET IT. You'll have your time, you'll know how it feels. You'll get it.

Third day, still unstable, still not used to it, still getting up at 5am with just a mere vibration from the phone when I get a text from you. Botak, I miss you but this all shall pass. <3 <3

02.

2011-08-03T21:23:00.001+08:00

Being not in class for 2 days, I missed a lot. I did not even bother to log into my school’s workplace to check what’s going on. Hence this conver happened,

Shawal and Derwin talking about CE activity going to Tekong that is full and how disappointed they were because they did not have a chance to go.

Me: Eh, go Tekong for what! I just went there yesterday!

Shawal: I know la! Your boyfriend go in already right?

Derwin: Go see Benjamin lor!

Somehow, it pricks me more when so many things and people can somehow bring you into our conversations. Ah, botakboy, I miss you. This botak of mine was sweet enough to remind me if I have did my RJ in the short 10 mins we talked.

I'm still fine, just perhaps, missing you a little bit too much, more than I should be.

01. You're better than the best.

2011-08-02T19:57:00.002+08:00

The boy bought me to Sentosa, UnderwaterWorld where he paid for me to get close w a dolphin!!!!:D Hehehe, so sweet of him to bring me on such a wonderful trip. We managed to feed fishes with our dead skin for 20 mins and that 20 mins were not even enough to make the boy plucked up his courage and soak his stinky feet into the water! He just paid to accompany me, he already knew he didn't dare to do it. We caught bridesmaid at vivo!:D yeah it was an M18 show, he snuck me in cause I was desperate to watch that show, it was damn hilarious and meaningful at the same time! We even snuck in BurgerKing for our dinner because we reached vivo at a peak hour. HAHA. Cabbed to his place and he drove me home. :) It was so fun and I hope that day lasted forever. :') It was perfect.

Today, Day 01.

Sent this botak boy off to tekong today! Actually its not that bad inside! The facilities they have machiam chalet only lor!!! But still, I rather him chalet on island than off island!! The next time I'm gonna see this boy is 20th!:( 2 weeks!! Not even out on NationalDay! Now when I hear National Day Songs, it kinda make me wanna smash the radio cause no, I don't feel together-ness w my boy!!!!:( Gonna suck more than sucky for this upcoming holiday. If only I can go visit him, wtf, sound like prison, lol!!:( I miss this boy damn badly, sigh, :(

I'm glad that I'm okay w the boy's family, at least it wasn't weird when I tag along with them and thankful for his nice daddy that sent me all the way to Superbowl from Pasir Ris. :)

Can't wait for the 20th already! Not been schooling since Saturday, and I really REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY don't feel like attending school tmrw!:( Should I just not give a damn and use all my X-es? :(

2011-07-16T15:24:00.001+08:00

Kinda long since the last time I've updated this space. UT2 been really draining, not that I studied, but its like so draining! The traveling hours are really no joke man. >.> OH YAH THE FARE TOO. Like robbing people's money only!

Basically, life been revolving around school>boyfri>family>church. It's getting kinda dull, but the boy's been nice and creative to think of places to bring me so I wont feel so bored of this red dot. He's been kind enough to piss me off and then buy flowers to cheer me up/customised cake, lol. At least he got the heart to make things good again, haha. Around 2 more weeks before he enlist, gah, as loser as this might sound, I'm kinda freaking out at the thought of it. :(

Alright, I'm blogging because Im stuck at my mum's pet shop and I got nothing better to do, and I got no motivation to study progra-fucking-ming. Really don't want to fail that module, I need more than luck to pass that man. Suck cowsballs. Im having a blocked nose and Im kinda pissed by it, lol.

Okay, enjoy your weekends people, can't wait to see the boy later again!

Far Far Away Land At USS

2011-07-03T15:46:00.044+08:00

( In case if you're wondering why do the photos look so jumbled up, it's not! we went to uss> drove to vivo for dinner>back to uss for fireworks>home! )

Went to the Universal Studious Singapore yesterday with the dear boy! It was his surprise to me, early 3rd monthsary present! Hehehe. Sure had a ton of fun in there, it was as if I was in another world, didn't felt like I was in Singapore. Being at the "hollywood" part makes me feel like I've stepped into the scenes of GossipGirl. Haha, just that I'm still surronded by Asians. -______- I love the Far far away land the best!!:( It sure feel as though its far far away from me. I wished I could stay there forever man. :( What a nice day with the boy! Hehehe, the mascots there are so fun! They flirt with me infront of the boy, hahaha! It was so fun to q for things together, getting wet together, laughing together, buying and sharing food, taking ridiculous photos of noses and eyes and watching the fireworks together. :):):):)

( while on the way home )

Ferlin: B, are you afraid of you entering army ?

Benjamin: No, I'm not afraid of entering the army, I'm afraid that things between us will change.

Hey baby, thanks for everything you've done for me. From the small surprises to the big surprises. From giving me whatever I want if it's possible. I know that in the coming month when you enter the army, it might get tough for us and we are both afraid. But, I guess let's give each other some faith and encouragement along the way eh? Nobody say it's gonna be easy, it might feel like a roller coaster, but hey, at least we've got each other, it will be another memorable experience, and once we're done with this phase of life, we'll be moving on together to a new chapter in life much stronger. We might just been together, in the honeymoon stages, but I guess the shit and quarrel we went through are not really honeymoon stages. Easier said than done, easier said than done, let's just embrace it together ok? :) I'll be the bunny, you'll be the tiger that will always protect me eh? Hehehe, xoxo.

I'm still feeling the withdrawal symptoms of the trip!! Listening to Accidentally In Love from the movie Shrek on replay, still thinking of the far away land, still thinking of the giraffe!!! Ahh, how I wish I can put USS in my pocket and bring it home with me. :(:(:( Happy time flies, saturday's gone and half of sunday's gone!:( This weekend was amazing, hehe, how's yours?:)

2011-06-27T21:26:00.001+08:00

B: 你是姓赖的阿？
F: 我要姓罗可以吗？
B: 可以可以，罗太太。
( immediately smiles and looks away )
HEHEHEHE.
Marina Barrage with the boy last Sunday!:D Had a mini picnic and went kite flying, so much fun!:D Went to get Scrape Book materials today after, so excited to start with the boy!:D

2011-06-19T23:02:00.000+08:00

Sup, so like, life's been pretty much great if I'm allowed to take school out of the equation of my life. Like seriously, doing the same thing is pretty alright, but waking up at 545am to learn something that I'm never gonna use for the rest of my life is just basically bullshit and wasting of time. Worse still, sometime, I feel that I didn't learn anything when school ends, and it's the crappiest feeling ever. It's like you woke up for nothing and travelled for nothing. Well, quit the complaining and suck it up for the rest of this year for I chose this.

So, basically how's life without the thought of studies? Great I guess. Great friends, great family, great boyfriend, great food, great love. It sucks that all my close friends are all away from me and I don't normally see them. Kenneth was sweet enough to make a trip down to woodlands to meet up w some of us! Feel the love already!!!:)

I'm like stuck on a Sunday night, trying to figure out programming. It's just like doing something that you suck at and you've no idea how fucking demoralising that is. I wish this year will end already, I wish I dont fucking screw up tomorrow's paper, I wish I don't need to retake this freaking module, I wish, I wish, with all my might. Magic star, please? :(

Gonna be a new week, enjoy your week! Till then. X.

2011-06-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

Because I can get so insecure. Because I love myself. Because I get so uncomfortable. Because I care what other think. Because I still get affected by my own past. Because I'm still afraid of my own past. Because I'm confused. Because I'm not normal. Because I'm bisexual. Because I'm afraid of losing you. Because I still want you even if we're not together. Because I'm afraid we won't be friends if we are not together. Because I think you're more than awesome. Because I know you are also made of flesh and blood. Because I know we all fall into temptations. Because I know love never fails. Because I want to believe that you are special. Because I know you are different from all the other guys. Because you seem so perfect, so fucking perfect and I know that no one is perfect.

As much as I want to forgive, as much as I want to heal, as much as I want to believe, you've no idea how much I'm struggling. Am I abnormal to feel this way? Am I not suppose to feel this way?

Although it's less than 2 months, I feel that it's been more and it's scary how needy I can be. Sigh, how now brown cow.

I need to pretend to be okay, I need to stop being so weak. I need help.

Compromise that moves us along.

2011-06-02T17:40:00.002+08:00

It's holidays!:D Hehehehehe! Not that I dislike school, really. School's been fun because of the almost perfect people I've met! If school's near jurong, I swear I will stop thinking of skipping school or partialing! Hehehe, I can't wait to meet Hilary and Shawal to go drinking, but it seems like no one is doing the planning. :( Lol. Can't wait to meet people during the holidays, but it suck that only rp is the one having holidays and all my friends are still busy. :(

It sucks that I need to be away from you for 3 days, I guess I just really need to go back to being independent. This sucks, but I'll deal with it myself cause there's nothing I can do when the trouble comes. Perhaps this get away comes in handy as a training. Sigh. I know I need to grow up and be more mature. I'm not in a relationship that is like back in Secondary school days. I need to suck it up. It's not always rainbow and butterflies, it's compromise that moves us along.

2011-05-29T23:41:00.001+08:00

Back to another Sunday night!! :( Tomorrow's Monday and I've got school for the next 3 days before holidays kick in for a week o-n-l-y. :( Sian sialzx. The last week was pretty much filled with love and food and love and more food.
Monday- School>UT>Home>B came over.
Tuesday- School>Dinner at ClementiMall w @IAMYL>home
Wednesday- School>UT>Home>B came over for an hour.
Thursday-School>Dinner at ClementiMall w @TurquoiseNailz, @BHYUKPYZ, @eijgneh
Friday- School>UT>Home>Cell group meeting.
Saturday- Church>Sakae w family and B>KungfuPanda2 w B and Brother.
Sunday- Stay home kid with family and B.

And it's another week! Can't wait for this week to start and I will never ever want it to end!:D He.he.he.

Sometimes its weird to see the way people care. My mum was happy when she knew I'm dating a boy instead of a girl. But when I was with a girl, my mum gives me a whole load of freedom, I stay at my ex girlfriend's place all the time, I'm seldom home. And now, my mum gets paranoid when I disappear with my boyfriend. Ha.ha.ha. But its okay, thank God I got a understanding boyfriend.

Although me and B are always so tired and busy on weekdays, I'm glad we can spend the weekends together! He brought me to watch Kungfupanda at 0120am and woke up at 08++ to work. Came over and accompanied me the whole day. You know how much I appreciate you and all the things you've done for me.:) I guess the best part of being with you is that I never thought I would end up with you and how amazing things can be. :) I'm sorry that I threw my attitude at you when I get cranky and am surprised by how you still talked to me calmly, sending me goodnight sms-es and making sure I'm ok and get my sleep even though you are pissed and might be swearing and cursing in your heart. You didn't have to do all these, you didn't have to do so much but you chose to. :):) Just to make me feel love and secured. :) Not sure what may come, it might not be easy, but I hope we remain like these for as long as we're together. :) I know we can be extraordinary. :)

Once again, I.CANT.WAIT.FOR.THE.HOLIDAYS. Want to meet people up!!!:( I miss secondary school life, I miss citycollege people, I miss staying up late, I miss sleeping in class, I miss getting kick out of class, I miss the times where I don't really care about results. I miss wearing the school uniform. Old times, old freaking times.

It's getting late, I should hit the sacks soon. Panda eyes, bad complexion. Argh. :( Blogging seems to be a chore now. So much effort are taken to complete this entry. Hahaha, how the hell did I continue blogging daily for a whole of 8 years for now? Hmm.

Alrighty, enjoy your week ahead,
X.

2011-05-22T01:03:00.002+08:00

Woke up today w my boyfriend cuddling me, boyfriend accompanied me to go daiso shopping today!:D Hehehe. Spent the entire day with him and he's out clubbing with his boys nowwwwww.

It sucks that I'm so drained out from school for the weekdays that I dont feel like doing anything except for sleeping. And when it comes to the weekends, I feel like I want to do so much but there's so little time. Sigh.

And yes, to the Man up there, I miss Your presence a lot, rain down Your presence already? :(

2011-05-19T19:51:00.002+08:00

Because I kinda forget what it feels like to have someone to care and control me in a way. I kinda forget what it is like to be in a relationship and frankly, I kinda hate this part. I kinda forget how to treat someone the right way. I kinda forget how to take into consideration about another person's feeling. I'm a spoilt and pampered brat. I make my parents apologise to me, I seldom think I'm in the wrong. I don't say sorry that often in real arguments and when I don't feel like it, I can stay mad at you for weeks and weeks. I kinda miss how I can do things without anyone's consent. I kinda miss how I can harm myself without having to hurt anyone. I kinda miss being single. When you doubt me, you make me doubt myself, you and this relationship too. I feel so lousy, since it's always my temper and stubborness causing the cracks in almost all of my relationships, I should just stop trying uh.

After 1 year of practice, I can be alone, I know I can. But I don't know why, I want you here now, I want you beside me now, I want to hear your voice now, but I know, if I am to see you, I will just continue be in my stubborn world and make things worse.

Oh yah, if you feel like lighting up a fag, it's will just make matters worse and it's the last straw.

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2011-05-18T12:22:00.001+08:00

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2011-05-15T02:36:00.003+08:00

Dear B,
Thank you for being there with me last night, although you don't really know what to do, although you don't really know how to help, although you don't know what are the right words to use, although you still was annoying and joke around, thank you for sacrificing your sleep for me. Just cause I said, "I want to listen to your voice, but I don't wanna talk." :) I know it's not good for your body and I'm sorry. I think we should both learn to turn in early because I really don't want you to fall asleep while driving.

This boyfriend of mine came into my room when I was asleep and I didn't know a thing, he came in and when I woke up to search for my phone to see his text, he hello-ed me. In shock, I woke up, can't go back to sleep. It's 0234AM now, I'm still awake and he's out with his boys clubbing.

Saturday's gone like that, haiiii. School on monday, vesak day on Tuesday which meant no school, and guess what it's the 17th on that day! *winks :)

Enjoy your Sunday people!
Tooooooodles! X.

And since that day, You stole my heart and you're the one to blame, And that's why I smile, Since everyday and everything has felt this right. You turn it all around, And suddenly you're all I need, The reason why I smile.(:
Smile- Avril Lavinge

happygirl93

2011-05-08T00:55:00.001+08:00

Perfect Saturday. Woke up to see the most annoying yet special guy standing beside me smiling at me. Washed up and boyfriend drove to get me brunch. Prepared and went church together. Had a very nice dinner at Billybombers and managed to find a pink calculator. Hehehehe. Homed and camwhore, polariods and photobooth! (:(:

Although I was damn emo when I knew I only can fix my phone on the 12th, I'm glad afterall, my day ended on a perfect note just like how it begun. I'm really happy to step into church again, worshipping the same awesome God, but somehow, I guess I it just never feel the same as the very first time when I entered church. I really don't want to slide away from church. :( Sigh.

On the other hand, I'm really thankful for this boyfriend of mine! Sometime, I do look at him, and wonder to myself why the heck will he fall for me and do so much for someone like me. Grateful for him to tolerating all my nonsense, for accepting my super-unglam-boyish-crude-annoying-not-girly-at-all side and for trying his best to fit into my lifestyle. I love how we always make fun of each other and how I always win the squabble. He.he.he. Even my boyfriend says I got fierce face, pffffftttt, what to do. :( B, if you are stalking me and reading this, I really am happy and thankful for every single thing and effort you out in for me although I'm forever rolling my eyes at you. (: <3

And happy mothers day! My moma not in town this year!:( Kinda miss her, ho.ho.ho. Texted her though!

Lastly, thanking God for all the wonderful people and things He has put and done in my life. (:
Enjoy your Sunday!:D
X.

2011-05-05T10:21:00.000+08:00

Me: Eh, you got rashes ah?
Boyfriend: Yeah, don't know why, itchy itchy one.
Me: Never shower! Dirty boy!! Eeeeee.
Boyfriend: Yah, I got dirty girlfriend, so black.
-
Me: Slap you ah.
Boyfriend: Slap la, slap la.
Me: Don't want, don't want dirty my hand.
Boyfriend: Dirty your hand? Please lor, already dirty, so black cannot wash clean.

Can tell me why he so bitchy one?:( Yet, still love him. Ha.ha.ha.

Can't wait for school end!:D He's coming to pick me at school and back home to change car and fetching mummy to Airport! Mummy's going China for 10 days:( And, boyfriend say bring me out for dinner, whatever I like to eat! Hehehehehehehehe. :) So love, so love!:D

Ok, it's only 1020AM, I can't wait for 0330PM. Bought subway for lunch during 1st meeting so I don't need q during lunch time! Having a cold bread for lunch today!:D Hehehehe, Bye!

Grateful.

2011-05-03T20:30:00.000+08:00

I'm back being very burnt and over tan. At first, I still refuse to agree that I'm over tan. But now, I'm starting to shed and still remaining black, I'm starting to agree already. Sigh. I'm still in bad pain and that really sucks cause I already skipped school today in hope that I will feel better and return to school tomorrow. And no, I won't be skipping school tmrw no matter what. Must be good student 101 although I already have a very chup siao attitude as always. :(

Feeling super loved by boyfriend ever since my return. When I came home last night, I was shocked to see a bottle of aloe vera gel, one of his shirt w his smell and a small little hand written note. Hehehe, he's really being so sweet. Homed at around 830plus? And he came over to helped me apply the gel and accompanied me. He even dry my hair for me cause my shoulders were aching like a bitch and I can't stretch. Knowing that I skipped school today, he came over straight after work and accompanied me. Stayed by my side and watched shows online with me. Before he went off he applied the gel for me again. He even helped me get a bottle of nail polish remover. Hahaha, people must think I have a gay boyfriend because his thumb and baby finger were painted too! Ha.ha.ha.

Love my gay boyfriend. Hehehe(:

I know we might be in the honeymoon phase now,
But let's just help each other along the way and one step at a time? :)
With many many many love,
Your super black girlfriend. lol.

2011-04-30T02:32:00.004+08:00

Off to Malaysia soon! :(

2011-04-28T22:13:00.001+08:00

Because,
I wear sneakers,

I can't sit still for long,

I prefer to sit with my legs on the chair,

I burp loudly,

I curse and swear,

I talk loudly,

I chew fast,

I swallow faster,

I don't wear dresses,

I don't care how people think,

I'm labelled often as a brother than a sister,

I'm a joker.

I talk whatever that comes to my mind,

I fight,

I reason everything out,

I take everything seriously,

I'm not your typical girly girl,

She's got everything I'm not.

And I still don't understand why you chose me.

I wish I don't have to go away this weekend,

Because, I don't feel good, I don't feel safe,

The last thing I want to feel is to feel like this,

A heart hanging on a string, just like a pendulum bob.

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2011-04-26T09:56:00.001+08:00

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2011-04-24T23:22:00.001+08:00

The weekend are coming to an end and it's so depressing.): love the well spent Easter weekend with boyfriend and family!:) hehehe.

Love how boyfriend always listen and give in to me. Hehehe. How he always kiss me on my forehead and how he don't mind that I don't always kiss him. HAHAHA. Love is more than hugs and kisses whaaaaat. Besides I'm standing at 159 cm and my boyfriend stands at 182 cm lor. MEHHHHH. I can hide behind him. Lol.

Anyway, so far I've gotten a C for my daily grade and the rest were Bs! C on the day I was late, pfffft.

Shall turn in soon, school tmrw. New week, back to not seeing boyfriend, back to waking up early, back to being a zombie.

Enjoy your week.
X.

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2011-04-21T23:13:00.003+08:00

new faces

First week of school is over! Short week as tomorrow is Good Flyday. School was not that bad! Met nice people but I guess I'm still trying to adapt to the new environment and new faces. Have been going to school with Jiabao and going home with brother yeo and baobao! The journey is really a killer man, I'm waking up earlier than I have to wake up during secondary school days. Okay, maybe I take a looooooooong time to prepare.

Oh yah, did I mention that I was marked late on the first day cause I stepped into the class only at 0832am. ( class starts at 0830am ) While people who stepped into the class after 0830 on the second, third and fourth day was mark present instead of a late because faci say give chance. HA.HA.HA. I know right, I'm a joke. -.-

My boyfriend uses a pink iphone cover now because of me. Muhahaha. I'm so proud of him to embrace my colour, so thankful for him for accepting who I am, so grateful for him to always help me in my housework chores and so love him for driving me around! So happy that he's mine. Muhahaha.

Been Long.

2011-04-16T14:47:00.002+08:00

I can't believe I'm starting school in another 24 hours plus. After not really hardcore studying for like a year? I'm going back to being a full time student, I really need time to get used to it. As much as I'm excited to go back to the books, I really wished I had a longer holiday, but who gets a holiday longer than mine eh? Ha, contradicting.

I guess the last weekend spent before school officially starts was the best weekend. The boy came over to my place and we ate dinner before going to the pet store to get some food. Went to pet store and it was our luck that it was sold out. :( Went home and continued watching some Chinese show before we decide to tag along with weijie and pauline to go prawning!:D Homed at about 2 plus and crashed at 3!

Love the boy for always taking the time and effort for me. Kinda feel bad because I think he really need to replenish on his sleep. Forever having a few hours of sleep only. Really grateful for how he always place me first, drive me around, picking me up when I'm out with my friends, accompanying me at night when I had stuff to do, talking to me whenever I'm in fights w my parents, trying his best to please me, forever giving in to me and how he says I'm perfect even without make up, without dressing up. (:

I guess what really touch me is how he give so much even I refuses to accept him as a boyfr yet. (: As bitchy as that might sound, lol.

I guess I never thought I would find a man who will love me this much. And I guess that's the difference btwn the boys I've dated. Still pretty much unsure, really hoping we can stay this way for long. Nevertheless, I'm still very appreciative and thankful for him:)

Have a fun weekend! With much love. :)

2011-04-08T13:44:00.001+08:00

Don't lower your expectations because of someone/anything. We all deserved to be loved like how we want to be. Don't look down on yourself because of your past events, don't ever think you don't deserve anything less than perfect. Because every human being is made and created with special care and love.

When things dont happen or turn out right, we should self reflect. But it dosen't mean we start putting ourselves down and inject negative thoughts into our veins. At the end of the day, as long as we know we gave our best shot, it really dosen't matter if the world is going against you.

Because you tried, your very best.

2011-04-07T14:36:00.001+08:00

time out, let's go slow.

Let's make this last.

2011-04-03T15:53:00.001+08:00

Being in a relationship and getting attached is not by changing your fb status or calling him/her your bf/gf or sharing hugs and kisses or seeing each other 24/7. If you're attached to a person by heart, you're already in a relationship unknowingly.

I guess I miss the boy. I guess I miss how he holds my hand. I guess I miss how he always reply my SMS-es promptly. I guess I miss how he always care for me.

I guess I'm falling deeper unknowingly and I guess I miss this feeling of being in love.

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2011-04-02T14:39:00.001+08:00

ENTERTAIN ME LEHZX. http://formspring.me/shiminxo

When you're lost, are you more likely to ask for directions or find your way without help?

2011-04-02T14:24:00.001+08:00

find my way without help. until maybe im late or really super lost then I'll ask for help.

Open to the floor, don't need shy.

April Fools.

2011-04-02T01:41:00.001+08:00

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand,
I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned,
Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around,
I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound,
Won't tell anybody.

I miss the boy.

do u miss jaslyn?

2011-04-02T00:54:00.003+08:00

I kinda miss her in a way when we were tgt? But, I guess it's safe to say that I've moved on? Anyway, you know a lot ah.

Open to the floor, don't need shy.

so.. you're a butch?

2011-04-02T00:54:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA, I think so? I'm a butcher I think.

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¿uʍop ǝpısdn ǝʇıɹʍ noʎ uɐɔ

2011-04-02T00:53:00.001+08:00

LOL. CAN.

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A Mess In A Dress.

2011-03-29T23:37:00.000+08:00

According to me, I'm stupid, useless and I can't do anything right.
But, according to him, I'm beautiful, incredible and he believes in me.

And, I wonder why.

2011-03-28T21:53:00.002+08:00

Every girls dream is to have a guy chasing her wherever she goes, trying his best to make her his. Hold her hand with his every breath and think of her with every heartbeat. Putting a ring on her finger down at the foot of the aisle and then grow old happily with her.

I don't need this to happen many time, I just need it to happen once. And I'm really glad you're doing so much for me. :) Your willingness to make my day. :)

Let's breath and take things slow. No regrets, just love. We can dance until we die. You and I, we'll be young forever.

You make me feel like I'm living a teenage dream. (:

precise website please.thanks

2011-03-27T22:10:00.001+08:00

-_- google gmarket or ebay if you want. for the blog shops, just get into a blog shop and go stalk other blog shops through the adv tagboard. THANKS. -.-

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u knw any online website sell handbags?

2011-03-27T22:03:00.001+08:00

Gmarket? Random blog shops? Ebay?

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2011-03-24T18:14:00.002+08:00

I think this is true and I honestly do not like how I'm feeling, where'd you go? I guess I miss you so.

2011-03-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

I just don't want to screw up things that look and feel so right. Because it really mean a lot. (: Thank you for being sweet always.

I'm in love with this feeling. I hope that this would last, we should make this last a while .

X.

Do you tend to be shy or an attention seeker?

2011-03-21T22:01:00.001+08:00

Depends.

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2011-03-20T20:51:00.000+08:00

I'm so busy with work and things that I need to do but never had the time to do. Argh. :( Life's been great though.

Church moved to Suntec Singapore already! Missed the first service and will be missing the second one too, due to work. Sometime, I wish I was born rich. :( But, I miss church!:((

Ok, I predict this week I will be sick on Wednesday so I prolly won't be going to work? Muhahaha.

Stay safe people.
X

I'll only continue to stalk you when you're still a les :)

2011-03-20T20:07:00.001+08:00

okay lor, you can fuck off already.

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Are you still a les ?

2011-03-20T19:53:00.001+08:00

Will you continue to stalk me if I'm not ?

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LOL! likewise i always have you on my mind too. hahahaha

2011-03-20T17:17:00.001+08:00

LOL, okay then maybe I don't have you on my mind. who are u sia.

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what was the most memorable experience in your previous school?

2011-03-16T23:38:00.001+08:00

helping out in the school carnival while being a ghost with my friends.

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Have you cried during a movie?

2011-03-16T23:37:00.001+08:00

yupyup.

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how many digits do you have in your bank account currently?

2011-03-16T10:32:00.003+08:00

Three only dey, you want donate ?

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What are you doing with ur live right now?

2011-03-16T10:32:00.001+08:00

ERRR, dude? you mean life? LOL. enjoying it?

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I think i saw you today at jurong point. Wearing black?

2011-03-15T21:37:00.001+08:00

LOL IM STILL AT JP LA. YES BLACK WHO R U . SAY HI MA LOL.

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2011-03-15T13:10:00.002+08:00

You talk as if you know a lot of stuffs. You laugh at people, but hey, do you know you are the stupidest that knew nothing but act as if you know a lot. Ha.

Who deserves to have a sandwich named after them?

2011-03-15T12:34:00.001+08:00

a person that looks like a sandwich/ a person who hates sandwich. MUHAHAHA. no la, I think you deserve it!

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2011-03-14T00:51:00.000+08:00

Seeing so many people getting hurt. Seeing so many hearts broken. Seeing people struggling to forget. Seeing so many people trying each day to move on. Seeing so many tears. Seeing confused minds. Seeing people make the wrong decisions.

Watching the melodramatic scenes. Watching the fake acts. Watching each forged smile. Watching how the world don't really give a fuck.

And, you really call all these love? Seriously? Strangest thing in life has really got to be love.

if talking about dating girls, which do you preferred? a more femme one, or more to masculine?

2011-03-13T18:55:00.001+08:00

er, I think I answered this before eh ? I really prefer a mix of both. but of cuz, the girl must not be more femme than me.

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what do you like about the opposite sex?

2011-03-13T18:54:00.001+08:00

Hmmm, idk. :/ I wish I knew?

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Whats up? I'm fucking random. ^^

2011-03-11T00:21:00.001+08:00

hahaha, nothing much, its ok. :) whats up for you?

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formspring.me

2011-03-11T00:11:00.003+08:00

Ask only! http://www.formspring.me/shiminxo

If you could teleport to any place right now, where would you go?

2011-03-11T00:11:00.001+08:00

nowhere to go in the middle of the night.

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Meet my bitch from hell.

2011-03-10T22:14:00.000+08:00

Read from the bottom, hahaha. Too bad if you start from the top already. HAHAHAHA. After skyping with her for 2 days, I really miss her a lot lorh. That chao ah lianzxc. Hahaha, april come faster leh! Hahaha.

HI VAL THIS IS FROM ME TO YOU AND KNOW THAT I MISS YOU. ):

New baby!

2011-03-09T17:20:00.001+08:00

GUESS WHAT CAME IN THE MAIL TODAY??!?!?!?!:)))))

Yes, a brand new cupboard box to store your ass and my brain!!!

Ok, joke, inside the box that can be used to store your ass and my brain contains this!!!!

HA.HA.HA.HA.HA. My new baby! I'm still finding my way through the computer. thank God for friends and sisters who are already using Mac.

Side note, on the not so happy note, bloody HOTMAIL decided to block me from my OWN account for the SECOND time! then, never mind, lao niang don't want to complain but, when I change my email and use it on MSN and add new contacts, all my contacts never receive. Knnnabey.

I'm back on facebook till I get all my contacts!!! Ahhh. So fucking annoying. Thank God that I didn't go for work today and tomorrow I'm off! It's popa's birthday!:)

Been buying a lot of things recently. :( Need to saveeeeee! Last month working at birdpark, I'm gonna be broke very very soon.

Bought a pink keyboard protector from gmarket! Hopefully it arrives safe and sound! OMG, what the fuck, I just killed an ant on my mac's screen. LOLOLOL. Mega gross!

Ok, till then!

Psst/ pls help me to add me on MSN if you got 2 eyes and a few fingers, you can add already. shiminxo@hotmail.com

whats the best ever compliment anyone has said to you?

2011-03-09T13:27:00.001+08:00

as cliche as it may sound, the compliment was " you are more perfect than you can think of, in your very own unique ways" which happened years ago.

Open to the floor, don't need shy.

2011-03-09T01:17:00.001+08:00

I guess I miss the feeling of having a person to text continuously. A person that will do whatever you say. A person who will go that extra mile. That's why I'm feeling like this.

But nope, I will be okay and I will be fine. I'm gonna clear my inbox, clear my head, clear my heart and go to bed.

Because I rather miss you first than miss your textes.

X.

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Who do you txt message with the most?

2011-03-08T22:08:00.001+08:00

currently no one.

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up till now, do you prefer girls more or guys if you were to go into a relationship?

2011-03-08T15:16:00.001+08:00

Hmmm it really depends. If the person is really sincere and everything, then the gender dosen't really matter.

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are you more of a femme or machos?

2011-03-08T11:44:00.001+08:00

I think I deleted your question, so I re-asked it myself -.- lol, and nope, I think I'm not your typical girly girl. I'm not really a femme girl but neither a machos girl. somewhere in btwn, I guess?

Open to the floor, don't need shy.